love outgrown

i thought this ones different, i thought everything will be fine on us. or on me, actually.

i've been thinking about this lately..

what if i became too dependent on someone that i dont even trust myself anymore?

what if i cant even give myself time to think and do things alone on my own, thinking that i would lost my time with someone that i love so much?

what if i dont wanna stay forever?

what if my love actually outgrown?

selfish of me just to think i could hurting my lover only to be okay on my own.

quarter life crisis

yup, you read that right.
akhirnya di umur 23 tahun ini aku merasakannya juga, the popular quarter life crisis.

life has been tough lately..
dimana aku selalu merasa diriku kurang, kurang pintar, kurang bahagia, kurang semangat, kurang keren, kurang cantik, kurang mengerti, dan masih banyak kurang-kurang lainnya.
entah kenapa merasa apa yang aku lakukan masih belum sempurna, belum baik dimata orang lain, belum memuaskan hatiku, dan masih banyak juga belum-belum yang lainnya.
does anyone on their twenties felt this way too?
aku mau mengembangkan diriku menjadi lebih baik, lebih hebat, dan lebih menyenangkan.
energiku akhir-akhir ini cepat habis, i dont feel any sparks to whatever i did in my life.

but to whom should i rest all of my doubts and weakness?